Goodbye My Lover

Goodbye my lover. I will never be able to be with you anymore. Sorry that I have to let you down,

It is Sunday and I am still feeling the blues from a long, long time ago. In fact...I think I will be feeling BLUE for quite some time. It has been  a few challenging months for me, more so for the past few weeks as I have to make decisions that were too difficult. A dilemma that was pretty obvious to remedy but then again it was so difficult for me to push the "button".

In the end, I knew that it was the right thing to do. Goodbye to you-the one who have been part of my life for a relatively long period of time. You have been with me for years at least when we measure it in terms of your perspective. I am sorry that I can no longer be with you anymore as I was forced to leave you. I am sorry that I have let you down. Hereby there is a song that is playing in my mind and it is...

Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your head.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.

In mine when I'm asleep.

And I will bear my soul in time,

When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

I am still feeling really, really crestfallen that I have to bid goodbye to you. I am so sorry that I can no longer hold your hands and hug you anymore, at least not as often as I used to do. From now onward, I can only see from far, far away. There will be always be bars between us. Please take good care of yourself. Goodbye my lover.