This post will be very vague....come to thing of it, my 3 years in University is coming to an imminent end soon. Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it "wasting" my precious time at where I am right now. Don't get me wrong. I really appreciate being what I am today. I felt really blessed at time. But other time I felt like being cursed and the pain get uncontrollable and consume me bit by bit. So lost. As if nothing else matters.
Destiny is both compassionate and cruel. Some say that everything is predestined while others argue that fate is in our very own hands. We decide our own future. How true is this? Nope. For what I have endured, destiny is never in our very own palms. We could only do our best for something that we have planned. The rest is "executed" by heaven (if you believe in it) and perhaps our own karma.
Crestfallen! Sometimes the pain is unbearable. It feels like I'm becoming a demon-possessed by the darker side of me. But all this while, my families has been there to "save" me. They are always by my side to tell me that my existence do bear some meaning. Is this the life that I want? There's too many uncertainty that surround me. A dark shadow envelop my sight and blanket my heart. Time after time I'm shackled to the ground. But no matter down I am, there will always be a glimmer of light in the deepest recesses of my soul-the love of my family.
Dad, mom, bro and wife, thanks for being there for me. You guys are my air. For every breath I take is because of you. I'm grateful. Truly I am. Thanks for giving me the hope that I need. I love you all. Let us all appreciate what we have and not bemoan for what we don't have. Thank you!!!